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Sunday, May 25 2008: 2118hrs Today is my only day off from work. I'm a State Officer and let me tell you its not easy being me. I have many women flirting with me and I have no sexual attraction to humans, so I have to play it off with a joking flirt but not a serous one. It all in an effort to keep people from discovering who I am. Today was nice, I went to the park with my family and saw they for the first time in months. A nice lunch and a few jokes here and there, nothing special but still a nice day. I'm going to the bar later to get shit faced and try to have some fun.
A little information about me. Being zoo-sexual of at least zoo curious runs in my family. It's kind of cool but we keep it on the down low and don't talk about it too much. I found out a year ago when I told me mom what I was. She laughed and said "Looks like we got another one." I found out she was zoo curious and active only up to the point of having a few dogs lick her, she said she fantasized about being boned by horses all the time. And she told me that her mother was active with dogs, and our great grandpa was a zoo pimp. lol I don't suggest telling anyone in your family, but I'm kinda glad I told my mom, I know I'm not the only one in the family.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 25 2008, 10:35 PM) A little information about me. Being zoo-sexual of at least zoo curious runs in my family. It's kind of cool but we keep it on the down low and don't talk about it too much. I found out a year ago when I told me mom what I was. She laughed and said "Looks like we got another one." I found out she was zoo curious and active only up to the point of having a few dogs lick her, she said she fantasized about being boned by horses all the time. And she told me that her mother was active with dogs, and our great grandpa was a zoo pimp. lol I don't suggest telling anyone in your family, but I'm kinda glad I told my mom, I know I'm not the only one in the family. Wow, glad that worked out for you.
QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 26 2008, 02:12 AM) QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 25 2008, 10:35 PM) A little information about me. Being zoo-sexual of at least zoo curious runs in my family. It's kind of cool but we keep it on the down low and don't talk about it too much. I found out a year ago when I told me mom what I was. She laughed and said "Looks like we got another one." I found out she was zoo curious and active only up to the point of having a few dogs lick her, she said she fantasized about being boned by horses all the time. And she told me that her mother was active with dogs, and our great grandpa was a zoo pimp. lol I don't suggest telling anyone in your family, but I'm kinda glad I told my mom, I know I'm not the only one in the family. Wow, glad that worked out for you. Yeah, totally! How cool is that !
Thanx. Ya I was glad too. I was going through the worst times of my life and was about to off myself that day because of what I am. I wanted to see if I would be excepted for who I am, it worked out for the better. It just sux being a zoo exclusive when thats the only thing your attracted to and you've never been with a beast.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 26 2008, 10:09 PM)Thanx. Ya I was glad too. I was going through the worst times of my life and was about to off myself that day because of what I am. I wanted to see if I would be excepted for who I am, it worked out for the better. It just sux being a zoo exclusive when thats the only thing your attracted to and you've never been with a beast. You say "you have never been with a beast," but you are zoo excluive ?
I am happy for you!, finding such a support is cool actually!I bet vital parts of my anatomy (the right lung that is) your situation isn't as hard as that of us where you are supposed to be like something else or else!Best regards!and this is a proof that we have some sort of genetic pre dispositionlet's just hope that we non zoo exclusives can spread the bad genes arround! he he he!
Zoo exclusive and never been with an animal ?Am I missing something here ?
you don't have to be sexural with an animal to love them, you can love and be attracted to an animal before sex acturally happens, although to be exclusive before hand is not common i would not discount it. I to sort of fit this bill, i was always attracted to dogs, even when young if given the choice of hanging out with people or the dogs i'd choose the dogs every time. But hopefuly one day you'll be able to fix that and have your first experiance, and it will probably be wonderful.I to am zoo exclusive, but more so than most as i'm female dog exclusive and then exclusive to my female shepard girl. I do know some of the feelings you share, i live with a female roomie whom is non zoo and don't know about me, and i'm always getting the "you going to fuck your roomie" remark from co workers and i have to play it off but that has always been one thing that has bugged me, is people can't believe that a man and women can live together as great friends, and room mates, and be it as just that, no sex, no "special favors" just 2 people who get along very well and are good friends, just opposite sex. Niether of us expect anything from the other. Just most people think because we live in the same house we are doing it, but we don't even sleep together lol i sleep upstairs while she is downstairs. So trust me, i know how you feel, but I have accepted me along time ago, and am very happy with who i am, and have stopped questioning it. As far as genetic disposition that is what i think happened to me, i have been attracted to female dogs forever, never once in my life been attracted to a human, i tried once with a girl but it ended badly and never could do much with her. Best regards, Tundra
Yup, I only like animals but I've never had the opportunity. I've fucked many women in my life but it didn't really interest me, I just did it to try and force myself to be "normal". I don't anymore of late. I've had a pet dog. Her name was Bear, she was a German Sheppard/ Doberman and Rotty mix. I was too big for her even when she was in heat. I only got the chance to finger her a few times. She had to be put down a year ago. She was way too over protective, she would bite anyone that got too close to me and she ended up biting the owner of the house I was renting from. I miss her a lot. I've never been able to afford a place that allows pets since then. And let me tell you, a life with no sex sux. But I mange by being a work-a-hollic. It help me to keep my mind off it and gives me hope that I'll be able to afford a place one day.
Today was the longest and most boring day. I got posted at the main FRC station and since it was a holiday no one but me and two other lower officers and some soldiers. I mostly chilled in my office, surfed the next and played some flash games for a few hours waiting for something to happen. I later went on a motorcycle patrol and went looking for any suspicions activity around the perimeter. It was fun for a wile but got old quick because it was so fucking cold out. (48F) I went to Mic Fatties for lunch and chilled with the soldiers smoking a few sigs. The end of the day was kind of cool, me and another officer and a few soldiers chilled and watched a few comedians on my computer in the office. I went straight home. I can't eat for a few days cause I'm negative money in the bank till Friday. I don't even know how I'm gona get to work tomorrow. But for now at least I can relax and kick back for a wile. I'll worry about it tomorrow. All I have to say is this ressesion sux and Bush is a peace of for bringing the great country to the brink of destruction.
QUOTE (st benard @ May 26 2008, 08:34 PM) QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 26 2008, 10:09 PM)Thanx. Ya I was glad too. I was going through the worst times of my life and was about to off myself that day because of what I am. I wanted to see if I would be excepted for who I am, it worked out for the better. It just sux being a zoo exclusive when thats the only thing your attracted to and you've never been with a beast. You say "you have never been with a beast," but you are zoo excluive ? Yep. That means I'm only attracted to animals. I've had a few oral encounters but tech. I'm still a zoo virgin. lol There just was never anything attractive about the human form to me. Humans are forever stuck in the friends only zone.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 27 2008, 01:53 AM) QUOTE (st benard @ May 26 2008, 08:34 PM) QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 26 2008, 10:09 PM)Thanx. Ya I was glad too. I was going through the worst times of my life and was about to off myself that day because of what I am. I wanted to see if I would be excepted for who I am, it worked out for the better. It just sux being a zoo exclusive when thats the only thing your attracted to and you've never been with a beast. You say "you have never been with a beast," but you are zoo excluive ? Yep. That means I'm only attracted to animals. I've had a few oral encounters but tech. I'm still a zoo virgin. lol There just was never anything attractive about the human form to me. Humans are forever stuck in the friends only zone. Wow. Friends only?
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QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 27 2008, 10:09 AM) QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 27 2008, 01:53 AM) QUOTE (st benard @ May 26 2008, 08:34 PM) QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 26 2008, 10:09 PM)Thanx. Ya I was glad too. I was going through the worst times of my life and was about to off myself that day because of what I am. I wanted to see if I would be excepted for who I am, it worked out for the better. It just sux being a zoo exclusive when thats the only thing your attracted to and you've never been with a beast. You say "you have never been with a beast," but you are zoo excluive ? Yep. That means I'm only attracted to animals. I've had a few oral encounters but tech. I'm still a zoo virgin. lol There just was never anything attractive about the human form to me. Humans are forever stuck in the friends only zone. Wow. Friends only? Yes yes, friends only. It never worked out with a human relationship, there never was any attraction and all my GF's felt it. I always pleased them but they could tell I wasn't. But it's all good, I'm finally starting to except who I am. Its been very lonely but I'm a very strong person, it'll probably be a year before I can get the lover and life style I want, but I'm sure it's way worth the wait.
Just got back from my older tribe brothers house. I'm so fucking drunk. Thanx to him I can make it till Friday without having to starve or ride me bike 10 miles to work. Still, I'm going to have the worst hang over tomorrow. I'm going to get some sleep now. BTW GTA 4 is a fucking awesome and fun game.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 27 2008, 01:07 PM) Just got back from my older tribe brothers house. I'm so fucking drunk. Thanx to him I can make it till Friday without having to starve or ride me bike 10 miles to work. Still, I'm going to have the worst hang over tomorrow. I'm going to get some sleep now. BTW GTA 4 is a fucking awesome and fun game. Sorry to get off topic-I guess I don't understand how you can have all kinds of money for beer/booze to get drunk with, yet you blame George Bush for you carrying a negative balance on your bank account. YOU are the reason you are broke. If you believe that one man, even the POTUS, can control your financial destiny, then it's time to wake up a bit bro. This is America. Wealth is created in America, it is earned. You can lay the blame for our current problems on your fellow greedy contrymen who think they are OWED a fancy house, two $40,000 vehicles, a pool, a vacation home, and a credit card with no limit. At some point that house of cards has to fall, and we are starting to see it. The banks didn't, and we are paying the price for our sins. Sorry bud, it's an election year-it looks like the mainstream media got ya hook, line, and sinker.
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Sounds you really had fun:) It's cool that you can share your feelings with your family. For me, this isn't an option at all.
You hit the nail on the head lol. I pretty much have no sexual attractions to humans althrough I do have a sexual attraction of women with animals. And they're right the love for an animal should occour way before the sex. I love my dog to death but she is too small to have sex with. But I still love her way more than I could any human. The only thing different is I am a recovering alcoholic I go to my AA meetings. It helps me be proud of who I am and keep my life on the right track they're friendly and dont care who I am... because thats who I am and they can't change that not that I tell them that im a zoophile. But I am proud of who I am. Maybe one day I will find a girl into this I mean I dunno try and see what works best for you not others. Because it is a lot easier for me to be myself than try and change who I am.
QUOTE (deviousdave @ May 27 2008, 11:55 PM)QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 27 2008, 01:07 PM) Just got back from my older tribe brothers house. I'm so fucking drunk. Thanx to him I can make it till Friday without having to starve or ride me bike 10 miles to work. Still, I'm going to have the worst hang over tomorrow. I'm going to get some sleep now. BTW GTA 4 is a fucking awesome and fun game. Sorry to get off topic-I guess I don't understand how you can have all kinds of money for beer/booze to get drunk with, yet you blame George Bush for you carrying a negative balance on your bank account. YOU are the reason you are broke. If you believe that one man, even the POTUS, can control your financial destiny, then it's time to wake up a bit bro. This is America. Wealth is created in America, it is earned. You can lay the blame for our current problems on your fellow greedy contrymen who think they are OWED a fancy house, two $40,000 vehicles, a pool, a vacation home, and a credit card with no limit. At some point that house of cards has to fall, and we are starting to see it. The banks didn't, and we are paying the price for our sins. Sorry bud, it's an election year-it looks like the mainstream media got ya hook, line, and sinker. lol, brother don't even talk to me about politics, I know way more than the average person; trust me I many many friends in high places. And what I said was a joke, Bush is just a political puppet, like every president is. I didn't spend a penny on alcohol, my brother bought it. I'm broke because I had to drop $700 for rent and $460 to help my dad with his and have to pay about $150 a week on gas. Thats not even counting food, so thats why I'm broke, I blame no one but fools and cowards for the troubles of the country. If they all got off their asses and learned something instead of claiming ignorance and abstinence, and stood up for their rights and whats right this country would be a greater place. But thanx for your opinion and trying to help me with some advice. You should be teaching others of your knowledge brother, your preaching to the teacher right now.
Today was a cool and irritating day. Cool cause today was my first time going on a helicopter patrol, very fun. lol But very irritating because I just recently stopped smoking sigs cold turkey and every little things basically pisses me off. The main tech cooperate peeps took the flash players off most of the computers so I can't do anything fun with my office computer anymore, and if I by pass the restrictions I'll be suspended for some time. I'm still negative in the bank and it almost sets me over the edge, especially when I always help everyone out in their time of need and when I need help, they basically tell me to myself. them anyways, I won't ever help them again. I only got $20 from my brother but the rest will be spent tomorrow for gas, I can go till Friday without eating but I'm going to be such an asshole. lol No nicotine and food can turn the kindest people into asses. Bit what ever is just another day in "paradise".
I'm up and I can't fall asleep. It's 0418 Wednesday morning. I don't have to be to work till 1500. I can't sleep because I have no many negative thoughts running through my head right now, and because I need a sig. ...Dam the nicotine. I keep thinking about my current situation. Am I going to remain alone the rest of my life, how much longer will I have to live like this, when will the world finally except us? These are just some of the things running through my head right now. I don't know how I've made it this far. I don't mean to bitch but it helps and slightly comforts me typing out my problems and getting them off my chest. But I've lived my entire life alone(emotionally). I had a shitty childhood riddled with abuse (mental and physical) by both my parents, drugs, poverty. I don't feel like talking too much about that right now. But I've been extremely lonely for...I can honestly say my entire life. I can't have a beast lover because I can't find an affordable place to live that allows pets., and I've never was attracted to people. Huuu...I don't know what to do other than wait and hope I'll be able to live and have the life I want. P.S. I hope everyone active here really cherishes and appreciates their zoo lovers, your very fortunate to have what you do. I sooooo jealous.
QUOTE (mortalidiot @ May 28 2008, 05:44 AM)And they're right the love for an animal should occour way before the sex. I know that, you guys don't have to tell me. Sex isn't that important to me, I want a beast lover, not a fuck toy. My old dog bear, I could never fuck her but I loved her with all my heart.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 28 2008, 03:51 AM) QUOTE (deviousdave @ May 27 2008, 11:55 PM)QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 27 2008, 01:07 PM) Just got back from my older tribe brothers house. I'm so fucking drunk. Thanx to him I can make it till Friday without having to starve or ride me bike 10 miles to work. Still, I'm going to have the worst hang over tomorrow. I'm going to get some sleep now. BTW GTA 4 is a fucking awesome and fun game. Sorry to get off topic-I guess I don't understand how you can have all kinds of money for beer/booze to get drunk with, yet you blame George Bush for you carrying a negative balance on your bank account. YOU are the reason you are broke. If you believe that one man, even the POTUS, can control your financial destiny, then it's time to wake up a bit bro. This is America. Wealth is created in America, it is earned. You can lay the blame for our current problems on your fellow greedy contrymen who think they are OWED a fancy house, two $40,000 vehicles, a pool, a vacation home, and a credit card with no limit. At some point that house of cards has to fall, and we are starting to see it. The banks didn't, and we are paying the price for our sins. Sorry bud, it's an election year-it looks like the mainstream media got ya hook, line, and sinker.lol, brother don't even talk to me about politics, I know way more than the average person; trust me I many many friends in high places. And what I said was a joke, Bush is just a political puppet, like every president is. I didn't spend a penny on alcohol, my brother bought it. I'm broke because I had to drop $700 for rent and $460 to help my dad with his and have to pay about $150 a week on gas. Thats not even counting food, so thats why I'm broke, I blame no one but fools and cowards for the troubles of the country. If they all got off their asses and learned something instead of claiming ignorance and abstinence, and stood up for their rights and whats right this country would be a greater place. But thanx for your opinion and trying to help me with some advice. You should be teaching others of your knowledge brother, your preaching to the teacher right now. Please read the rules.Rule 5.1.24: DO NOT discuss religion or politics.
Im living with my mom till I go off to college this fall just graduated high school and man where do you live in the city? If your landlord doesnt come by often get a dog anyway They dont allow pets in the house we live in but we have a ton of them lol. Man I don't know what I am going to do going off to college this fall without my doggie. And hey man talking about anything helps the situation tremendously lol. of course thats 3 months of rehab talking... but anyway hang in there. I have to do things today not expecting anything in return from anyone because if I help them its not their responsibility to do the same for me...it can really piss me off sometimes but ya know thats just life. You're never alone man thats why we have this forum because we are who we are and we share that together on the net... technology what a concept... oh well I'll shut up and im off to bed.
QUOTE (mortalidiot @ May 29 2008, 06:25 AM)Im living with my mom till I go off to college this fall just graduated high school and man where do you live in the city? If your landlord doesnt come by often get a dog anyway They dont allow pets in the house we live in but we have a ton of them lol. Man I don't know what I am going to do going off to college this fall without my doggie. And hey man talking about anything helps the situation tremendously lol. of course thats 3 months of rehab talking... but anyway hang in there. I have to do things today not expecting anything in return from anyone because if I help them its not their responsibility to do the same for me...it can really piss me off sometimes but ya know thats just life. You're never alone man thats why we have this forum because we are who we are and we share that together on the net... technology what a concept... oh well I'll shut up and im off to bed. Thanx brother true zoo. lol I live in south San Diego California. I can't have any pets because I live with my landlord And all other places are way out of my price range. Thats cool ur still living with your parents rent free, I don't have that option. Take advantige of it and save every penny you have, trust me it's a cold world out there. Ya I bet ur going miss ur pup a lot. I still miss Bear. It's been over a year now. But at least its not that long, I haven't been with anyone or anything for...probably 7 months now. lol But the not being with people was my choice. Yup I know I'm not completely alone, I have my beast buddies here. And that's what helps me a lot. I can finally talk with like minded people and be who I truly am. Thanx for reading
Today was day one of no food and no money. It was a typical day at work nothing new. I don't know how I'm going to make it till Friday. I'm so hungry and weak, but I'm not so concerned about that. I am on low fuel and I might only be able to make it to work, I don't know how I'm going to get back tomorrow. I guess I'll just sleep at work in my office. Tomorrow is going to be a huge day at the FRC I'm currently stationed at. I just hope no one tries to start anything with me tomorrow because my temper is out of control due to starving to death. Two more days till I can eat and start living normally again. From now on I'm not lending out any money or financially helping anyone. I have a credit card on the way through the mail so this won't ever happen again. Let me tell you...lesson learned. I'm going to play hell's gate London and kick back. BTW if you liked Diablo one and two this is the game for you, same makers and mostly the same set up. But it has a cool new system to it, it's almost halo/diablo hybrid.
Are you going to be allright?
QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 29 2008, 09:28 AM)Are you going to be allright? lol I hope so. This is the third time I had to go through this. It's never been this bad though...dam the gas prices.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 29 2008, 02:01 AM) QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 29 2008, 09:28 AM)Are you going to be allright?lol I hope so. This is the third time I had to go through this. It's never been this bad though...dam the gas prices. Allright then man. You be cool.
zoo pimp?! that just made me laugh u have a cool mom!
Hang in there Retribution! It's just temporary, I'm sure.
Man you should never go hungry what I used to do when I ran out of money and I ran away from home is go into walmart get something at the deli then walk around the store eat it then leave....lol. I would definately not help people out finacially you gotta take care of you first then you can choose who you help. I would try to get on a good budget plan man. Know how much you got to spend and how much you need to make it through. Being in AA and NA I know what you're going through its just co dependency for me at least going around trying to fix all the worlds problems and controlling the outcome of things. It's hard for me at least to turn down someone in need butI know I gotta make sure I am doing okay first. I am definately keeping up with your thread man I enjoy talking to you because I feel like I can relate to quite a bit of it. So i'm here for you man hang in there.
QUOTE (mortalidiot @ May 30 2008, 04:30 AM)Man you should never go hungry what I used to do when I ran out of money and I ran away from home is go into walmart get something at the deli then walk around the store eat it then leave....lol. I would definately not help people out finacially you gotta take care of you first then you can choose who you help. I would try to get on a good budget plan man. Know how much you got to spend and how much you need to make it through. Being in AA and NA I know what you're going through its just co dependency for me at least going around trying to fix all the worlds problems and controlling the outcome of things. It's hard for me at least to turn down someone in need butI know I gotta make sure I am doing okay first. I am definately keeping up with your thread man I enjoy talking to you because I feel like I can relate to quite a bit of it. So i'm here for you man hang in there. You know what Mortal, ur a real cool cat/dog. Thats some good advice I'll have to put to use, I never though of it that way. The last person I think and worry about is myself, and that may be a good reason why I'm having such a hard time right now. Tomorrow is pay day so I'll be ok. I do budget myself but I had some unexpected expenses. If I didn't give my dad the 400 he would of been out of house and home. But starting tomorrow I'm on a strict budget. No more expensive fast food, I'm actually going to go grocery shopping. I'll get me roomie to cook some food too. I'm hoping I get that credit card soon so I can put all purchased things on there and pay it at the end of the month. But gas and rent are my main problems right now, I need a raise sooo bad.
I like the new avatar.
Day two of no food and money. What a fucking day. Crazy day at work and even crazier effort to get there. I did the normal routine of getting up putting on my uniform and armor, beretta, ect. And nearly fall down the stairs rushing down them to try and get to work on time(I love to sleep 10 or more hours ). When I got in my car and started it the fuel gage was at the red and E mark. I was worried I wasn't going to make it to work today. I drove slow and very gas conscious. I literally ran out of gas as I was pulling into the main parking lot. lol Talk about luck, it was like some shit from a comity movie. I borrowed 13 dolors from my boss/friend for gas and food money till tomorrow. I went and used my gas can in the trunk to fill up my car with a gallon to get me to lunch and eventually home. I eat at Mc Fatties, and I usually HATE that place but after about two days of no food ur own hand looks like a tasty treat. I had four 2x cheese burgers and a drink. Man, after that I could actually start to think clearly again. The actual day at work was a little busy, but still easy enough. I was posted at one entrance for 4 hours before I was relieved, talk about boring. But after that I got to go on motorcycle patrol on the Ducati. It was way worth standing up for 4 hours. Nothing exciting happened, just wrote a few parking tickets, joked around and talked shit with the other officers and soldiers, the usual. I'm looking forward to getting my pay check tomorrow, I hate owing money and I'm negitive $109 in the bank so I want to get that squared with asap. For now I'm going to chat with some beast buddies here and then play Hell's Gate: London.
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QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 30 2008, 09:12 AM)I like the new avatar. Thanx, me too. It suite's me more. I'm basically a warrior wolf wearing a human suit. lol
QUOTE (bitchlover03 @ May 29 2008, 09:03 PM)zoo pimp?! that just made me laugh u have a cool mom! Thanx. It's actually crazy the amount she has changed over the years. She used to beat the living SHIT out of me for almost no reason at all. Now things are way different, she's a good friend and a great mom. I can talk to her about literally anything. I rarely talk to her about zoo stuff, mostly because I don't see her very ofter after I moved away. But she talks to me about everything also, her animal fantasy's, about her and her boyfriend's sex life. lol, some shit I would prefer not to hear but It's cool I can talk to her openly and freely.
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QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 30 2008, 01:24 AM) QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 30 2008, 09:12 AM)I like the new avatar. Thanx, me too. It suite's me more. I'm basically a warrior wolf wearing a human suit. lol Nice lol
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 30 2008, 09:21 AM) **shortened quote***:... the fuel gage was at the red and E mark. I was worried I wasn't going to make it to work today. I drove slow and very gas conscious. I literally ran out of gas as I was pulling into the main parking lot. lol retrib, can't tell you how many times in the recent past I have "been there, done that"... In fact, a couple months ago, I got to work... but when I clocked out and started the car, it died as soon as I put it in reverse! (Yay for cell phones and friends who will bring you a couple gallons!) I'd like to give you some suggestions over pm or in chat... hopefully you can save money. Also... potatoes and eggs are cheap and very versatile!!! ttys thanks EV, for reminding this thread about "no politics" rule. I was just about to do the same... till I read your reply. On the whole "zoo-exclusive" note... I can completely understand... right now I am 95%-ish temporarily zoo-exclusive (too many reasons to list... but no bad reasons at all!) ...and while I think it might just be a phase, I could see it lasting my entire life if I choose... to everyone and their individual decisions... whether they change or not. Just be happy with yourself!
man thanx for the comment you can save a ton of money cooking food at home instead of eating out. Heck if you really wanna start learning to cook somewhere get the like 101 ways to make ramen noodles it has a ton of recipes that are really simple. I can understand the gas tank on E lol thats why I filter out used veggie oil because my mercedes is a diesel. I am gonna buy hells gate london that game looks pimp. but btw blizzard made diablo and bungie halo I guess maybe they split off to make that after getting mad about world of warcraft. I am bi with animals and wanted to pick one up tonight but around where I live they are all hound dogs and so LOUD!!!! lol I dont wanna get shot by a hill billy but its a hard thing to weigh against. I actually meant a lady with a horse farm of throughbreds today so I might drive out there and hop the fence one night. She said they're skittish and shes scared to open the gate. I was like im not scared of any animal if it kicks me its pissed if it runs its scared and if it lets me pet it it must want me near it lol...least thats my philosophy for animals I don't know very well. I can understand about your dad though that would suck sounds like he needs a budget too! well till tomorrow
It's weird too because I can suck on my own penis...lol So I really don't need a woman in the first place. Just a lover to comfort me in my time of need or a lover that I can pleasure okay I gotta get up early tomorrow to go to yard sales.
QUOTE (mortalidiot @ May 31 2008, 07:01 AM)I can understand about your dad though that would suck sounds like he needs a budget too! well till tomorrow Actually he can't work very often cause he's really weak. He is currently dieing from bone marrow canser. And the fact that construction jobs are very slow doesn't help. He does what he can to make the rent but I always end up helping out, I'm just a kind person like that.
QUOTE (everythingelse @ May 31 2008, 05:14 AM)QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 30 2008, 09:21 AM) **shortened quote***:... the fuel gage was at the red and E mark. I was worried I wasn't going to make it to work today. I drove slow and very gas conscious. I literally ran out of gas as I was pulling into the main parking lot. lol retrib, can't tell you how many times in the recent past I have "been there, done that"... In fact, a couple months ago, I got to work... but when I clocked out and started the car, it died as soon as I put it in reverse! (Yay for cell phones and friends who will bring you a couple gallons!) I'd like to give you some suggestions over pm or in chat... hopefully you can save money. Also... potatoes and eggs are cheap and very versatile!!! ttys thanks EV, for reminding this thread about "no politics" rule. I was just about to do the same... till I read your reply. On the whole "zoo-exclusive" note... I can completely understand... right now I am 95%-ish temporarily zoo-exclusive (too many reasons to list... but no bad reasons at all!) ...and while I think it might just be a phase, I could see it lasting my entire life if I choose... to everyone and their individual decisions... whether they change or not. Just be happy with yourself! Well its very cool to meet you Everythingelse. Thanks 4 reading, and informing me about the rules. (They are meant to be broken )
Hey there, Retribution.
A step closer to financial ruin. Today was friday and payday for me. And on payday most people are usually happy, but not me. I got my check and it was $100 less than I expected. It was only enough for rent and to pay the bank what I owed them. And I though I had it hard before, it was only for three days. I'm now 100% broke for two weeks. I have to ride my bike to work and steal food. lol an officer stealing. I've been looking for another full time job and so far no luck, but its only been a day. I just can't believe it, I work 6 days a week and anywhere from 8 to 10 hours and I still am broke and careening twords financial ruin. Well if two full time jobs can't get me by then I'm just going to move to Oregon. I don't mind working so much anyways, I honestly don't have a life outside of work. My old band friends are into heavy drugs, my high school friends all ether moved away or onto better things. I don't usually hang out with people out side of work too often, I'm truly a lone wolf. My only complaint is I just with I had a lover to come home to, my life just drags on, the only thing keeping me going is the though that I'll have a lover...someday. Thanx for reading and listening to me bitch about my problems. I just wish I had a beast lover to write about and contribute some actually interesting zoo material.
Damn.Sorry life has been so hard for you. I'll actually be moving to Oregon in either November or December.
Hey again Verysexxe P.S. Thanx for what you do, I was never able to join because of asthma. There would be no need for a supper soldier project if I got in. lol
QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 31 2008, 09:54 AM) Damn.Sorry life has been so hard for you. I'll actually be moving to Oregon in either November or December. lol, Ya brother me too. Well karma is a strange thing. I may suffer now but I'll greatly appreciate what I have later. What part of Oregon are you moving to?
Well I haven't really done much, but okay. Either Salem or Portland. Still not sure which one.
QUOTE (Verysexxe @ May 31 2008, 09:59 AM) Well I haven't really done much, but okay. Either Salem or Portland. Still not sure which one. Ha, very nice. I've been to Portland once, beautiful place with many trees fresh air and lots of wild life in the abundant forests. I suggest you check out eagle point and medford. Nice place also. Y are you moving though?
Even though I'm 18, I think it's time for me to get out of the house. I'm choosing Oregon because I enjoy that type of weather. California is just too hot for me.
Good for you. I love the environment in Oregon also, so many trees open space and fresh brisk air.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ May 31 2008, 04:50 AM) Good for you. I love the environment in Oregon also, so many trees open space and fresh brisk air. Yep.
You're whole family? @_@ wow! Thats crazy! In a good way! =3 I suppose it's in you're DNA
Man I wanna move to washington or oregon someday arkansas is awful... I got a friend driving out to cali this coming tuesday from there hes going to head out ot hawaii to work on an organic farm free and everything for 20hours a week a place to live all the food he can eat. I think its a pretty cool deal. I want another dog so badly but I cant get one because I am going away to college soon I think I am just gonna have to own a house b4 I end college I cant live without my one dog and I need at least 2 lol
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QUOTE (mortalidiot @ Jun 1 2008, 06:24 AM)Man I wanna move to washington or oregon someday arkansas is awful... I got a friend driving out to cali this coming tuesday from there hes going to head out ot hawaii to work on an organic farm free and everything for 20hours a week a place to live all the food he can eat. I think its a pretty cool deal. I want another dog so badly but I cant get one because I am going away to college soon I think I am just gonna have to own a house b4 I end college I cant live without my one dog and I need at least 2 lol Be lucky you have even one. Being a zoo exclusive virgin is wayyy harder.
Today was way kickback at work, but its a weekend so... I'm in an awesome mood cause I just found another full time job. I start on Monday, 16 hours a day will be tiring. I'd rather be starved for sleep than food and no money. Life is hardcore but I'm way more hardcore so its all good for me. I'll be doing casino security, bla, but its another income. I'll save 80% of the money I make from my second job to go to Oregon. I love California so much, but it's way too expensive, hot and deserty. At least in Oregon I'll be surrounded by Nature and wild life, but most importantly I can finally get a beast lover. I've been alone too long. Now I will be able to be who I truly am.It'll be at least 6 months till I can move, but I waited this long so it will be no prob. I'll use this time to search for awesome deals on Oregon housing and more importantly look for a zoo roommate. Just imagine how awesome that would be, to be who you are in the open and share your experiences, story's, ect.
QUOTE (AngeliqueRaquel @ May 31 2008, 04:02 PM)You're whole family? @_@ wow! Thats crazy! In a good way! =3 I suppose it's in you're DNA Well not exactly my entire family, It just runs in the family. It's like every 2 out of 5 are zoo's.
I'd come be your room mate I gotta make it through college though first gonna get my degree in Management of Information systems theres a mouthful and some money fixing a companies network when theings go to pot. Hehe I am there with you on that one the whole zoo virgin thing,,,,I am a virgin altogether actually I never saw the point to work hard to impress a woman when I am not even attracted to her but thats just me I would rather pet and rub all over a big dog or horse then talk to a person for that matter...unless it was one of t he fellow thatd be weird to meet one in person were so discrete with our lives. Maybe next summer I might plan a trip to oregon
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QUOTE (mortalidiot @ May 31 2008, 11:17 PM) I'd come be your room mate I gotta make it through college though first gonna get my degree in Management of Information systems theres a mouthful and some money fixing a companies network when theings go to pot. Hehe I am there with you on that one the whole zoo virgin thing,,,,I am a virgin altogether actually I never saw the point to work hard to impress a woman when I am not even attracted to her but thats just me I would rather pet and rub all over a big dog or horse then talk to a person for that matter...unless it was one of t he fellow thatd be weird to meet one in person were so discrete with our lives. Maybe next summer I might plan a trip to oregon Why does everyone want to go to Oregon?
Ya that'd be way cool. I've been with many humans but lately I'm fed up with the female selfishness and the whole not being attracted thing. I tryed so hard to make it work, but you can't change who you are. So I'm going to make myself happier but just being who I am. I'll finally be sexually satisfied and no longer lonely.
[QUOTE=Verysexxe,Jun 1 2008, 07:58 AM][/QUOTE]Why does everyone want to go to Oregon? [/QUOTE] Because its the unofficial migration of the zoo's. Didn't you get the memo? I was thinking the same thing, almost every true zoo I know is going to be moving to Oregon sometime this year. Me included. I'll probably see you there brother.
QUOTE (Retribution_4_TW @ Jun 1 2008, 12:08 AM) [QUOTE=Verysexxe,Jun 1 2008, 07:58 AM][/QUOTE]Why does everyone want to go to Oregon? [/QUOTE]Because its the unofficial migration of the zoo's. Didn't you get the memo? I was thinking the same thing, almost every true zoo I know is going to be moving to Oregon sometime this year. Me included. I'll probably see you there brother. That would be cool, bro.
Oregon is win - 'nuff said on that subject. Looks like the whole gang has to join the march to Oregon (potentially)... awesome! Just when I was getting used to being lonely and depressed, I am a zoo exclusive as well - not interested at all in hoo-manz - wtf!?And no offing yourself, I myself have been contemplating it for 5 months solid, finally snapped out of it a couple weeks ago I think... but its people like you that keep me going.
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QUOTE (Toledus @ Jun 1 2008, 01:14 AM) Oregon is win - 'nuff said on that subject. Looks like the whole gang has to join the march to Oregon (potentially)... awesome! Just when I was getting used to being lonely and depressed, I am a zoo exclusive as well - not interested at all in hoo-manz - wtf!?And no offing yourself, I myself have been contemplating it for 5 months solid, finally snapped out of it a couple weeks ago I think... but its people like you that keep me going.
Good to know. True zoo's need to stick together, we live a partial hell but at least were here for each other. People just don't realize how horrible and wonderful it can be. And yes Oregon = very yes
I dont think theres anything wrong with being a zoo at all god if you look at history and some of the artifacts left behind from civilizations...they dont put them in the history books though lol...If I were to make a bet I bet that people were having sex with animals b4 men thought of having sex with another man but then again thats just my opinion I also think it would be more opt for being a zoo to be in someones genes then to be ....of course also my bringing up has some to do with it my best friend was a dog named mattie she was awesome I have most of my childhood memories around animals and the elderly lol (grandparents) And Oregon is DA bomb its on the coast not to close to the canadians but not as hot as cali... I do love canadians though and their use of the phrase (EH!)
QUOTE (mortalidiot @ Jun 1 2008, 11:34 PM) I dont think theres anything wrong with being a zoo at all god if you look at history and some of the artifacts left behind from civilizations...they dont put them in the history books though lol...If I were to make a bet I bet that people were having sex with animals b4 men thought of having sex with another man but then again thats just my opinion I also think it would be more opt for being a zoo to be in someones genes then to be ....of course also my bringing up has some to do with it my best friend was a dog named mattie she was awesome I have most of my childhood memories around animals and the elderly lol (grandparents) And Oregon is DA bomb its on the coast not to close to the canadians but not as hot as cali... I do love canadians though and their use of the phrase (EH!) There is not a damn thing wrong with it. Many people just dont seem to understand that. *Sigh*
Ya your right about there being nothing wrong with it(as long as it's consensual) But it can be a living hell if you have no beast lover being in a world of humans. Very lonely. But I don't understand why people have anything against it, it has been around as long as"regular" human to human sex. People just don't know what their missing out on.
Today was an awesome day of kicking back. I woke up at 7pm. lol I went to a hookah lounge downtown with some friends, drank some beers and kicked back, shooting the shit. After I went to some sushi place and got some bomb sushi and boba tea. After I went home and posted some stuff here and talk with a lot of my beast friends, It was only one day off but honestly its enough for me. A good day to start a great week or slaving away. lol
yeah they kinda are against it because people do abuse animals in the wrong way just like people out there who are sick and sexually abuse children...I once read an article about a man raping a horse then stabbing it to death then he like wrapped it up and dumped it over a bridge it was really sad the horses name was peaches...
Ya, I hate that, thats just not cool at all. That is bestiality and it should have no place in the world (the rapping part)
Loooong day let me tell you. I'm not at all tired or exhausted it was just boring at my first job and the same ol' shit at the other. Same shit different day. Well working at the casino is cool and all but I hate doing security work, so much bullshit red tape. I feel sorry for the security guards. On my way to my main job I arrested a drunk driver leaving the casino. lol Talk about luck (for me ). I didn't even clock in and I was already doing work. Ha. The rest of the day was basically uneventful. It was kind of cool cause I got to eat a decent lunch today. It might not be a big deal to most people but recently is to me, lol. One of the lower ranking newbies offered to buy me luch to get on my good side, and if you know me I'll never turn down food. I still went to Mc fatties after eating what he bought me. After the long and enduring day was over I spent my last $10 on gas. Well now I have to do a payday loan if I can't collect on this asshole that owes me money. For now I am still careening twords financial ruin, well at least till next pay check. After that I'll be caught up and then some. O and that credit card I was waiting on, I got declined. lol talk about pure disappointment.
It's good that you got some food today and good job arresting that drunk driver, who knows what kind of trouble he could have caused.
Hey... It's good to hear that atleast you ate decently... About those payday advancements... Watch out, the interest can be up to 500%!
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man you need to get a capital one credit card or HSBC they offer cards from 300-500 dollars I got one and I have no credit lol try that but just lean on it when you have to if you run the bill up to high it will hurt your credit score
Thanks I'll check it out. The one my friend applied to get for me through a friend had a 5000 dolor limit, so ya.
Today was another long day but I'm used to it. The only thing I can't stand is going hungry. I couldn't collect money on a person so I still have no money, just living off change at Mc fatties. I don't know what to do about the gas issue, I guess I'll borow money from my sister. That might help, for now After this next pay check I'll be caught up and wont be financially fcked. I'll keep my second job for as long as posable, Oregon here I come!! Too tired and hungry to think, bed now.
woo Oregon! I hope you get your money situation sorted out soon
Hurray! Congrats on avoiding financial destruction!
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Another day another Dolor. Another long day, just he usual BS here. I applied for a capital one credit card, I'll see how that goes. Nothing out of the ordinary today. Very slow actually, not many people are going to the FRC lately. Aw well, less working hard for me. I'm on empty, but I have a good ieda to get me out of the gas rut. We have a fuel truck at work I have full access to 24 hrs, I'll just put a few gallons in me car. I'm going to be getting 40 dolors from me sister on Friday so that will defo help. I just can't wait till next Friday, pay day. I'll finally out of the bs debt and I'll be ahead and the saving can finally start. I just can't wait till I can move to Oregon, I will have a fresh new start on life and I will be able to live with my life style with no worrys, and since some beast friends are considering moving there too I will have an awesome life up there. No starting over friend wise. So for now I still play the waiting game, 20 years and counting,
QUOTE (Nathiuz @ Jun 4 2008, 10:11 AM) Hurray! Congrats on avoiding financial destruction! Thanx. Ya that would be horrible. I guess hard work pays off....someday.
I'm about to go to bed but I just wanted to share a few thoughts. I can't get moving off my mind now, it's all I'm thinking about. I'm sooo SICK of working my ass off all day for basically nothing. I'm starving to death and I work 6 day a week!! I hate the gas prices, the fucked up pay, waaay too high housing prices, and because of all that I'm beyond miserable and lonely as fuck. Sorry if I'm offending anyone but I'm on edge because I'm so hungry and broke and stressed out from being on empty, and most of all so sigs or sex...so ya I'm past the point of fed up. ...I though things are so posed to work out for good people.
not a lot goin on now, but when my cousin was around he not only used me, but his dog used me, not much choice here, but luvd it... was never sure wen me cousin would turn up or wot would happen wen i was at his, but k9 action was the sometimes the plan and how fuckin horny was it, was always in me boots dog and him seemed to luv them!
Man don't look at what your fed up with look at the good things in your life. Be greatful you have a car a house a bed to sleep in. As for the food situation talk to some of those ethiopians in Africa they sniff glue to avoid feeling the hunger pains. Shit will turn around trust me its just life and it has its ups and downs its all about what you make of it. I might be moving to cali with my mom but id probably go to college in Oregon make up some excuse or something but my mom wouldn't have trouble living there shed get paid $40/hr but yeah man it's so easy to focus on the negative be glad for what you do have? As for the lover thing youll get one eventually I am going to have to go through at least 4 years of college b4 I can get a place of my own and have my own lover and ill have to leave my dog at my house because i can't have her in the dorm damn those colleges.....
Long road when you're on your own... but, like I always say "Hell first, fun later." Guess what? You are doing the hell part, once you tear through that aspect of life - fun, happy times! If not, at least you got us.
Hell is an understatement. I'm just very glad to have found someone special lately to help me through these hard times.
Same old same old here, not much new.At my second job we celebrated a huge sale day today. 3.6 million in one day. lol Thats a lot...too bad they wont share the wealth. I got a bottle of wine and a bottle of tequila from a transporter today, that was way cool and unexpected. lol They know me too well, the best way to bribe me is through food or alcohol. I actually let my pride go and asked for some financial help today. I got $40 dolors from a transporter for gas and food. Talk about a good hearted and kind deed. For the first time in almost weeks I had a decent meal, I got a FAT subway sandie, the feast with all the fixings, cookies, chips, and a drink. Man I was literally in heaven after eating all that real food, I actually got a food buz and passed out in my office. I guess it was an awesome day. I'm currently drinking the bottle of wine given to me today. But whats really strange is I just can't get someone off my mind. I don't know how to explain it, infatuation? Maybe, but I've never had thoughts like this before, especially about a person. Well all I know is if it feels right , do it; and if everything doesn't work out then at least I made a life long friend and I helped a kind soul through it's time of need. Well for now I'll see how things go I don't wanna press things too fast and scare them(or myself) off. I'm gonna get me alcohol and nicotine fix and sleep, only two more day till I get one day off. It's honestly all I need, I get bored with out work, all my friends are into drugs, heavy drugs or moved away so I don't have a whole lot of options. Life can be very lonely, but after writing this exact sentience drunkly I realized that its MY life and MY choice on how I live it. I've made my choice to start anew and that I will surely do. I just hope I still have the positive motivation when the alcohol wears off. Peace to all my beast buddies and thank you for your support and motivation, I couldn't of made it this long with out all of oyu.
Woot I got a good meal today. Subway. I also got some money from my sister so I'll be good for wile. I can't wait till my pay check so I can get me bike tunned up to save on gass, and for fun. Same old shit at work nothing new. Actually one thing, a close call. We got a new suburu wrx delivered to the FRC and me and so gear head Officer friends of mine took it out for a test drive. We went driving around in it, but typical crazy friend of mine came up with the brilliant idea of jumping it off a loading ramp. lol We hit it at 40mph and got some air, it actually kind of scared, I though the landing was gonna finish off my back, but it was built for rally crossing so everything way good. We almost hit a pylon on the way down which would of been very hard to explain to the boss how the hell that happened. lol Well good night for now.
Well it finally happened. I have been hit by a crippling wave of depression. I just can't take living like this. Working 18 hours a day and being soooooo alone. Sometimes I hate myself for how I am. I've been drinking tonight so thats not helping any, but still; I just want all the suffering to end. I went to 7/11 to get a pack of smokes, and I saw someone who walked in and bought a pack of condoms, it almost see me off so I walked out to my car before I plowed my fist into his bitch ass face. I was lightning up my sig looking at the girl he was riding in the car with he was going to fuck later and I actually felt my face get warmer from the rage I felt, I was pissed off to the max. I had some very bitter thoughts run through my head, "Why can't I just be normal, Why do I have to suffer so much, Why does I have to hide who I am, Why do I have to be so fucking lonely." After the guy buying the condoms the guy walked out, I gave him the meanest and rageful look.He walked up to me acting all confident like he even had a chance against me. He said, "Whats up fool, you got a problem with me?" I said "Yeah I do, now walk away wile you still have the chance". After that he open his mouth to talk some shit. I was more than done talking by then, I gave him his fucking chance. When he open his mouth I put all of my force into a right hook right into his jaw, aiming for the artery under the wisdom molar part of the jaw. I hit to so hard I heard a crack, and I got two more shots into his face before he hit the ground. I know I KO'ed him on the first hit but I was in a rage so I made all the shots I could. After that I walked away to my house. I don't beat people after there on the ground, its not my style. I just feel so angry and depressed. I don't know how much longer I can live like this, I don't even know if I'll make it through the night. I've lived tooo long with this depression, I tried to hold it in and ignore it but it has consumed me. I just want to be happy and free. My only thoughts right now are of ending it all and finally getting some peace at last. I don't know what to do anymore, I can't live like this any more, I'm a very good and honorable person you might meet and yet I surfer everyday. I never have been loved by another living soul my whole life, even my parents, my self love has run out. I have a great feeling of hate twords both my parents abusing me for so long, WHY DID THEY HAVE TO FUCK ME UP SO BAD!!! If I had one wish it would be to die in my sleep tonight.
Don't give up, seeing how strong and hopeful you are has been giving me so much hope for myself. I'm sure things will work out okay in the end. Just take it one day at a time, and before you know it you'll be in your car driving up to Oregon. In the meantime, you probably shouldn't beat up anymore people, it could get you into a lot of trouble. Listen to some Modest Mouse, lol, they always make me smile, even when I'm in a bad mood. And I'm always here if you need someone to talk to
Well I'm back...need I say more. Anyways Sunday was an ok day. I kicked back and got $100 from my tribal brother. Woot Talk about being awesome. But the thing about today that I didn't like was the fact that there was fighting and drama between some of my other friends. As usual I end up being the moderator and counseling both sides and helping them see from each other perspectives. But this time it was hard considering that this was building up d=for a year. To make a long and very irritating story short, I don't think they will be friends anymore, my other friend tried to make me pick and chose sides. lol He's a fool for thinking that, I'm the neutral player, I'm on my own side, I just chose to help. There was almost a fight twice and I'm glad that never happened because it would of blown-up to the point of someone getting killed. P.S> Don't fuck with an Indian, we'll get the whole tribe on ya. lol Anyways I have a long day of work ahead and I better get some sleep its already late.
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